If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe....

Don't you hate situations that you know will never change but you desperately want and need them to?

I will always be stuck in the middle....invisible to some but consumed by others.

I am just a blank sheet of paper

I am the embodiment of disappointment. What a feeling.

Just once, I want to find someone who values my happiness as much as I value theirs. Because sometimes I feel like I'm just there for no other reason than to take up space.

Just a thought

Maybe one day
Along the way
You'll remember me
On this island
Smiling at you
How I used to
Maybe one day
You'll remember

And it won't be sad
To think of what we had
All unhappy ends
Can be behind us then
Maybe one day
Along the way
You'll think of me
And you'll be smiling

Maybe one day
Maybe one day
Maybe one day
You'll remember

--Patty Griffin

You promised the truth and you told lies

I hate never being able to say what I really need to say to people. And I hate when the wrong people ask me to tell what's wrong when it has nothing to do with them and it's awkward. Especially when they hardly know me.

I just want to hang out. I ask to watch a movie. They kind of give me an answer, but then end up hanging out with other people. Other people ask them to do stuff and they do it right away, and I have to ask time and time again just to go downtown to get lunch. Which I know isn't going to happen after all.

I don't ask for much, but when I do it's not anything extravagant and certainly no more than other people. But somehow coming from me it's too much.

I should be studying right now but I can't even concentrate enough. This sucks. I need the last 3 days of my semester to get better :-/