Day 9 - A Song That You Can Dance To

Boondocks - Little Big Town

Similar to Holly's post, there is NOTHING like seeing Little Big Town live, especially seeing them sing Boondocks live. The energy and "dancing" during this song is more jumping around and jamming with the people around you, but honestly? It's one of my favorite things to do. One month from today Holly and I will be doing this exact thing and I absolutely can not wait!

Day 8 - A Song That You Know All The Words To

Cowboy Take Me Away - Dixie Chicks

This is a song that I can sing off the top of my head with or without the song playing in the background. I love everything about this song...The lyrics, the melody, Martie's fiddle solo after the second chorus. I didn't grow up in the south or in a rural area. I grew up in the central New Jersey suburbs. But when I listen to this song, I can just feel the emotion. I wish for the sentiment the song has; I wish for something like that to happen in my own life.

I said I wanna touch the Earth
I wanna break it in my hands
I wanna grow something wild and unruly
I wanna sleep on the hard ground
In the comfort of your arms
On a pillow of blue bonnets
And a blanket made of stars
Oh it sounds good to me

Chorus
Cowboy take me away
Fly this girl as high as you can
Into the wild blue
Set me free oh, I pray
Closer to heaven above
And closer to you
Closer to you

I wanna walk and not run
I wanna skip and not fall
I wanna look at the horizon
And not see a building standing tall
I wanna be the only one
For miles and miles
Except for maybe you
And your simple smile
Oh it sounds good to me
Yes it sounds so good to me

Chorus

I said I wanna touch the Earth
I wanna break it in my hands
I wanna grow something wild and unruly
Oh it sounds so good to me

Chorus

Day 7 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event

Never Saw Blue Like That - Shawn Colvin

I remember buying the Runaway Bride Soundtrack on cassette when it came out, and bringing it with me to my grandma's cottage when we went to visit her that summer. Summers at Cuba Lake were what I waited all year for. It was the one chance I had to be around my cousins that I admired so dearly. The one chance I had to be memorable to them in any way. It was my one chance to attempt to teach them something about me and my meager elementary/early middle school school likes and dislikes. The summer I brought that cassette with me, I listened to this song over and over on my Walkman because the song just reminded me the joy I felt when I spent time with my cousins, especially Shannon. She was my hero growing up. She amazed me. All I wanted was for her to love me and be proud of me. I wish with all my heart that either of those things were still happening.

Today we took a walk up the street
We picked a flower
And climbed the hill above the lake
And secret thoughts were said aloud
We watched the faces in the clouds
Until the clouds had blown away
And were we ever somewhere else
You know, it's hard to say

Chorus
And I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky, around the world
You're given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh I, I never saw blue like that before

I can't believe a month ago
I was alone
I didn't know you
I hadn't seen you, or heard your name
And even now I'm so amazed
It's like a dream
It's like a rainbow
It's like the rain
And some things are the way they are
And words just can't explain

Chorus

And it feels like now
And it feels always
And it feels like coming home

Chorus

Day 6 - A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere

Entertaining Angels - Newsboys

This song reminds me of going to Camp Tapawingo, when I was 14 I think it was. Camp Tapawingo is a Christian all girls camp in the Adirondack Mountains in New York state. I had never been to camp before, and had finally convinced my parents to let me go with the few girls I was friends with at church who had gone for several years. I was nervous at first, but loved it. I discovered a lot of things about myself those 2 summers at camp. And this was one of the songs on the mix CD that they would play in the Crafts cabin. I remember listening to a lot of Newsboys and Point of Grace then. Anyway, I heard this song randomly on the radio today in the car after getting some pretty devastating news, and it instantly reminded me camp.

One to another
Do you remember me?
I feel so small
Well are you listening tonight?
So temporary
The things that I have seen
I ran so far
Will you take me back again?

Entertaining angels
By the light of my TV screen
24/7 you wait for me
Entertaining angels
By the time I fall to my knees
Host of Heaven sing over me

One to another
The feelings inbetween
I won't let go of all you taught me
Close as a brother
The way we used to be
I'll hold my breath
And I'll wait for your to breathe

Entertaining angels
By the light of my TV screen
24/7 you wait for me
Entertaining angels
While the night becomes history
Host of Heaven sing over me

Entertaining angels
By the light of my TV screen
24/7 you wait for me
Entertaining angels
By the time I fall to my knees
Host of Heaven sing over me

Entertaining angels
By the light of my TV screen
24/7 you wait for me
Entertaining angels
While the night becomes history
Host of Heaven sing over me

Entertaining angels
By the light of my TV screen
24/7 you wait for me
Entertaining angels
By the time I fall to my knees
Host of Heaven sing over me

Day 5 - A Song That Reminds You Of Someone

American Honey - Lady Antebellum
This song reminds me of my best friend Holly and how we listened to it on repeat in her car in Wilmington in January. I have a feeling we'll be listening to it in my car in a couple weeks too :)

"There's a wild, wild whisper blowing in the wind. Calling out my name like a long lost friend. Oh I miss those days as the years go by. Oh nothing sweeter than summertime and American honey"


Love Like Heaven - Sarah Buxton
This song will forever remind me of Allison, Becky and Hannah and our singing and dancing along to Sarah performing this at CMA Fest 09 after we requested it using Hannah's white board.

"Some people tell me I'm foolish and crazy. Something so perfect, it just can't exist. They say I've been watching too many movies. These great expectations really put me at risk. Yeah, but I know better. Always have, always will. Call me a dreamer, I just feel what I feel."

Day 4 - A Song That Makes You Sad

Again, can't pick just one song. I'm interpreting this category to mean songs that I listen to when I'm sad. I have a specific playlist that I'll put on repeat when I'm sad and/or lonely, and while I won't put that whole playlist down for this one, here are 3 from that list.

Mississippi's Crying - Emily West
"Mississippi's crying baby, Mississippi's said I think we just figured out that you ain't coming back. The sky can see you leaving and it can't hold back the tears. Oh it's pouring down and my heart thinks it's dying. Mississippi's crying"


Keep You - Sugarland
"You get used to the pain. And numb to the sting, til you can't feel anything. You tried to explain, but I couldn't hear it. As if your words were my tears flowing freely warm and quiet. From the edges of my eyes in my ears. Then all that disappears."


Lost/Fix You - Little Big Town
Lost: "Don't know who I am. Staring at a million broken pieces here. Don't know where I stand. While I'm still the world goes round so free, so cavalier."

Fix You: "Tears stream down your face. When you lose something you cannot replace. Tears stream down your face and I. Tears stream down your face. I promise you I will learn from my mistakes. Tears stream down your face and I...Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you"

Day 3 - A Song That Makes You Happy

It is impossible for me to pick just 1 song that makes me happy. So below are the ones I finally narrowed it down to!

It Happens - Sugarland
"Let go laughing"


That Kind of Day - Sarah Buxton
"Got 26 messages on my voicemail and I've only called my best friend back. And I told her when it comes to my life these days, I'm somewhere between a cry and a laugh."


I'm With the Band - Little Big Town
"Sweet gypsy highway. Won't you let me chase my dream? Cause I got a song to take me there. And it's something to see, something to see."


Wrong Baby Wrong - Martina McBride
"And we can fly, baby, fly, baby, fly, let's share a bottle of wine. We can laugh about the good times. And you'll know why, baby, why, baby, why it's gonna be all right."


Love Somebody Like You - Keith Urban
"I wanna feel the sun shine, shining down on me and you. When you put your arms around me, don't you know there's nothing in this world I can't do."


Country Man - Luke Bryan
"Hey, I'm a country man. I can wrestle hogs and gators with my 2 bare hands. Girl, you better move quick I'm in high demand. Hey baby I'm a country man."


Good Directions - Billy Currington
"A left will take you to the interstate. But a right, will bring you right back here to me."

Day 2 - Least Favorite Song

If you know me at all, you know there are 4-5 artists I really don't enjoy. I could probably list most of their music here since the second category is least favorite song, but I won't. However, I will pick one that actually has 2 of those artists in it.

Shiftwork - Kenny Chesney ft. George Strait

Can't. stand.this.song. And that's all I'm going to say about that, because I don't want to waste space on my blog with lyrics or a video of a song I don't like haha

Day 1 - Your Favorite Song

I Can't Make You Love Me - Bonnie Raitt

Picking 1 favorite song is incredibly difficult. I can pick a favorite song from each artist I love. But I guess I have to go with the song I remember being my first favorite song when I was younger. I grew up listening to (what I now know is) Adult Contemporary radio. Back then, they played "I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt pretty often. The lyrics get me every time.



Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
Inside my head

Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close
Don't patronize, don't patronize me

Chorus
Cause I can't make you love me
If you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Something it won't
Here in the dark
In these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're holding me

Morning will come
And I'll do what's right
But give me 'til then
To give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

Chorus to end

30 Day Challenge -- Music

Holly found this on another blog and thought it'd be fun for us to do together :) I'm a day behind, so I'm going to play catch up and do the first 2 today. I love that this is like a month long survey!

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Let go of my pain, to hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes

So today was an interesting day. I went to the Education Career Fair where several school districts from PA, a few from MD, 1 from NC & SC, and a couple other random ones came to meet with education majors and conduct interviews, etc. First time I've ever done something like that obviously and it hit me once again how I'm tip toeing closer and closer to "real life". The closer I inch, the more I worry.

I'm just going to be blunt because this feeling has been eating away at me all day. Coming away from the Career Fair, I felt like a failure.

People there knew exactly what they wanted, which schools to visit, what to say; were determined to get interviews, even though you don't obviously get hired on the spot. Even the people who went into the fair saying that there wasn't any districts they were particularly interested in seemed to suddenly know exactly what to do and who to visit with and got interviews.

Me? Yes, I had researched 3 districts beforehand, 1 of which I didn't have a chance to go up to because the line was always so long. Spoke with the other 2 districts and handed them my resume. But no, I didn't have an interview. Partly because those 2 districts weren't doing interviews and partly because I didn't go up to one of those MD or PA districts doing interviews because I did not know about their district and felt even more foolish.

I feel like the only one who didn't go to an interview and take advantage of that "experience". Everyone was adamant about how taking any interview would be a good experience and it would better themselves as a future applicant for schools. So now I feel even more behind on life. I feel like my "peers" are going to look down on me or something...that's kind of an awful feeling. You want yourself, your ideas and your work to have merit and be respected. I have felt first hand recently what it's like to be taken for granted and not have that happen.

In this moment I just feel really alone and lost. It was great living here for the last 4 years, but I don't think I could stay here any longer. I don't have anyone or anything really to go home to in NJ. I don't have anyone to move somewhere with, as much as I wish for that. Where am I going to go? What am I going to do?

I wish someone was here right now to sit down with me and talk about any and all of this stuff. Someone to just listen to all of my random ideas and be supportive of them.

I know I need to believe in myself, and while this entry more than likely contradicts that, I do believe in myself. But I can't help but wish that I had someone who believed in me too.