I could slip and fall with no one to catch me at all

It's really nice out today. It's supposed to be a beautiful weekend. Where will I be? Alone in my apartment trying desperately to get work done. I wish I had someone to go outside with to do work this weekend. I wish I had someone to spend time with at all.

These last 2 weeks in particular have been really hard for me. I think I've cried every day the last 2 weeks. One thing after another has seemed to go wrong student teaching. Just when I think I finally got through one thing, another piles on. It's like I can't do much right at all, and it's slowly killing me because I'm trying so hard and it just seems like it's not enough. Like I'm not enough.

It's gotten so hard to just make it through another day. At least that's how it seems right now. I need to make it to April 23rd so bad, but right now I honestly have no idea how I'm ever going to make it to then.

I really need like 2 or more days in a row to go well. I need someone to hang out with to make my mind off stuff because all I have at the moment is to come back to my apartment, try and get through doing work and be reminded of what didn't go well.

Good happens...just wait and see

A year ago, I was on spring break, in what has become my favorite place. Wilmington, North Carolina. I sat at a table amongst a couple hundred strangers in the middle of an opportunity I never would have thought I would have in my life time. Extraing for One Tree Hill. There, I met a girl who has become my best friend. Holly.

I had so much fun becoming acquainted with the artsy town. It is beautiful and comfortable and more than I thought it would be. I really love it there. And I owe that town, the opportunity from OTH and Hilarie Burton, so much for meeting Holly.

I don't know what I'd do without Holly. There have been a lot of ups and downs over the last year, but either way, I know my life is better with her in it now. I can't wait for this summer and all the stuff we're going to do. I have no idea what my life is going to be like another year from now, which scares me, but I know that Holly will be there for me with whatever happens.