All the things I've felt and never shared

I pretend that I don't care about being alone.

I pretend that I think I won't end up alone.

I pretend I'm not scared to not be able to have children.

I pretend that I'm not scared to not get married.

I pretend that I don't care about never seeing my family.

I pretend it doesn't bother me that I probably won't meet some of my cousins.

I pretend that I have friends left at home.

I pretend that I have a ton of friends at school if anyone asks.

I pretend I don't care all my friends have or have had boyfriends.

I pretend I don't care I've never had a boyfriend.

I pretend I don't care that I've never been kissed.

I pretend everything's ok.

I pretend that I don't care about my weight.

I pretend that I know what my future will be like.

I pretend that people don't hurt my feelings.

I pretend that people breaking promises to me doesn't matter.

I pretend never hearing I love you doesn't hurt.

I pretend I'm not taken for granted.

I pretend that I don't think about all this stuff.