I start my last semester of college in less than a week. I'm terrified. And I wish it was because the last four years were so amazing and I don't want to leave campus and the people I've become so incredibly close to. But that's not the reason. There's not even one specific reason really, it's a combination of a bunch of things.
I'm afraid that maybe my supervisor from last semester was right and I'm not cut out for this. I'm afraid because if that turns out to be true, I have no clue what I could possibly do with the rest of my life. I'm scared of not finding a job. I'm scared of having to sacrifice going where I think I could truly be happy because I don't find a job, or I do find one but it's in PA or NJ. I'm afraid that my loneliness over the last 4 years at school will culminate in me truly being alone. I'm afraid of not being enough (to take a line from OTH). Because I feel like I haven't been enough in a very long time.
I just want to curl up and cry. But I won't because I'm in Wilmington right now and I have to go back home tomorrow to all this mess. So I'm going to try to hold on a little tighter to this place, the fun, and the laughter I've had with Holly these last couple days while I can.
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These last couple days have been great & there is only more to come this summer. :)
You are definitely enough -- and I'm gonna make you realize that. You're gonna make an awesome teacher or we can be a team in the music business, if my career path pans out. :)
"Everything happens for a reason..."
"God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress." - KC
<3 you!!!
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